Well, I had my surgery with no complications except that since I've gone back to work, I've been depressed and a little nauseous. The depression is from having off work for 4 whole weeks, then coming back to work where there has been a change in our directors. Our new boss isn't bad, but as with all new bosses, she is making a lot of changes. And of course I've got to hear the complaint department. That is, hearing all my co-workers complain about the changes.
I'm also feeling depressed over the loss of food. That I can't eat like I used to. It is horrible when I forget and take a big drink of my water. Often I forget when I'm eating too and the first bite ends up being too big and not chewed enough, so then it sticks and hurts and is so uncomfortable.
It is weird too. Because now I know where my stomach is and I don't feel the hunger in my stomach but in my guts. I have alway felt it there too. Weird, I always thought that it was my stomach!
I'm also running out of food that I'm able to eat. I find something that sounds good, tastes good and goes down good, but then after eating it once or twice, I can't eat it anymore. The thought or smell of it makes me sick. I feel a little nauseous all the time. The only thing that I've been able to eat and keep eating are sugar free popsicles and decaf coffee. Yogurt comes and goes for me. There are days I can't eat it and then the next day it is okay to eat. So far I can't eat, ground beef, tuna, chicken, cream cheese, peanut butter, beans and almond milk.The thought of eating these thing make me feel sick to my stomach.
Many processed foods have way too much salt in them too. I got a cup of split pea soup one day last week at a local restaurant I had looked it up on the internet and it has the highest amount of Protein grams of all of their soups. But it was so salty, I couldn't eat it.
I have been eating a lot of salads with cheese on it and a boiled egg, but I think today was my limit on that.I almost couldn't finish it today, so I don't know what I'll eat tomorrow.
Well, that is where I'm at today. Sorry, this sounds like a lot of Belly Aching, but this is where I'm at. And it is part of the reason, I haven't blogged lately. I'll try to be more positive next time.
