Sabotage

Well, I’ve had my first experience with a person trying to sabotage my diet/food/eating. Yesterday when I went to pick my daughter up from the sitter, she had a big plastic container with a dozen cupcakes in it. Anybody who has a toddler knows that once you give them something that they like a lot, you can’t take it away from them without a huge temper tantrum. Even though my daughter is not a toddler, she has special needs and emotionally she is a 4 years old. So I had a choice. Let her keep the cupcakes and bring them home,  or tell her no that she can’t have them.  She brought them home.

Her sitter may not have intended to sabotage me. She probably was just not thinking.  I saw another dozen cupcakes on her table and so she was trying to get rid of them. But she knows about my upcoming weight loss surgery and me having to follow the Optifast program. She should know how hard it is, because her mother had surgery herself and had to do a similar program for her surgery. Of course I will tell her that she needs to ask me before giving my daughter something.

All of the cupcakes are still in the container except the one that my daughter ate after dinner last night. How did I get through the night? Well, I kept reminding myself of the reasons why I’m on this liquid diet and why I cannot give in and eat a cupcakes. (seriously, eat all of them!)  Losing weight before surgery helps to reduce a fatty liver. It takes longer for the surgeon to retract a fatty liver, so by following this diet and losing some weight before surgery will actually help me to have a shorter surgery. Also, I will not have to go through the Bowl Prep if I stay on this diet.

 I have 12 more days. I can do it! I also keep telling myself, that in time, I will be able to eat food again and that I might not even be bothered by a cupcake. But boy was I sure aware of them being in the my house last night.